Alaskancreole wrote:So, quick breakdown: PTSD. Bipolar. Been going through severely stressful situations for four years straight. Custody battles, spouse cheating, spouse becoming addicted to drugs. My husband and I are still married but separated. The agreement was he would get help and I would wait for him. We aren't supposed to be seeing other people. I've given up on the "not seeing other people" part. He may or may not have already gotten two girls pregnant. He seeks no help for his drug use. He doesn't help with his bills or joint debts. I carry the load alone. As soon as I'm over the situation and start moving on he pops back into my life and sucks me in again. I'm angry. Beyond angry! Like a rabid dog caged just waiting to get out. I'm a burying kind of person. I push the anger down and try to pretend it doesn't exist. Then one day it just explodes. I've been burying my anger towards him, my ex, these females, drugs, and mostly myself for feeling so weak, for 4 years. I'm feeling like I'm bubbling over and not sure if I can stop it or find a release at this point that will allow me to release enough to stay sane without an explosion. I need help. I want help! What do I do?
First get a divorce. This is a bad situation and you need closure. While you are thinking that time apart while he gets help and getting back together, you are leaving yourself open to abuse and wasting your time. Find another man. There are a lot of fish in the sea.
You can be sucked back in by a cheat. Understand the cheat and it no longer works. And that cheat is also used in a different way to make you more angry than you wold be normally about the issues involved. This is done by posing a concealed threat. You don't acknowledge it consciously so you are not aware that the extra energy is due to fear. Thus any injustices or violations, which normally make one angry, are fueled.
Here is how the cheat is done:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7nxUl19 ... AuxWZ2DzEg It is 5 videos in all and a total of about 1 1/2 hours.
How you get sucked in again? A fall in love at first sight cheat, used in various way, often to "re-ignite caring or attraction". Here:
https://kyrani99.wordpress.com/2011/12/ ... game-play/I strongly suspect that PTSD is done by reminding you of a past bad time. It can only be done by someone closely related as it requires ESP, i.e., mental suggestion. Someone, possibly your husband, is messing with your mind. Reject the ideas and replace them with positive ideas of future events that you select and attract into your life.