Depressed and lonely, thinking of suicide.

The title of your thread has a key aspect of the problem, that you are lonely. You are spending most of your day in bed, or medicating and if I had to guess you are spending more time alone watching television, on social media or the Internet, e.g. this forum. You are hiding.

Shut off your social media. Set your alarm, leave your apartment in the morning and don't go back until late in the evening when it is time to sleep again. Stay out in the world. Walk in parks, sit and read, find a coffee shop, establish a routine. Visit the same fruit vendor each day and get yourself something to eat. Talk to people.

XTREME201

Suicidal depression is nothing to fool around with. its not something you want or don't seem to be able to stop. There are several different kinds of anti depression pills out there. Having said that, if the problem has stemmed from something specific and you have dismissed the incident, then anti depressants might not help as much as talking to someone.

If you google National Suicide Prevention, you can get a phone number or online live time chat. they may be able to help you sort out how much danger you are in. Do it soon though. What you are feeling can be worse than physical pain. If you use the chat, you will be anonymous. There is usually wait, and the busy time is between about midnight and 4am. There is less competition during the day.

Look, I've been where you have and still am for stretches. I hate the thought of you struggling and feeling like you don't want to live.

Alex4

XTREME201, how is your depression now. The depressing truth about antidepressants is that reviews have shown that they are not any more successful than a fake treatment in treating depression. People think that it will help them in relieving the problems that are suffering from. But they don't think that it can also harm them. Most of the people who have become drug addicts, they usually rely on antidepressants pills, also antidepressants does not provide you a permanent relief. When someone is in a depression, it is very common that they feel very lonely. One should try consulting someone that will listen to their problems and can provide them a solution to overcome it. Someone like a counsellor, therapist, psychic, tarot card readers, etc. One can look for a psychic like Voyante Sérieuse from Martine Voyance or can also look for more similar psychics by searching them online.

Suicide is the act of intentionally causing one's own death. Risk factors include mental disorders such as depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, personality disorders, and substance abuse, including alcoholism and use of benzodiazepines.

victorias_secret wrote:Go for a walk. It can help.

Good advice Jason

Maybe I can help you? I am the guy from Ukraine When you are depressed the most important thing is to reestablish attachment to something that will pull you out of this state. Just going for a walk may not help since it can contribute to lonely feeling. Reading the book may not help either - since you don't want to read anything. It is likely that you don't want anything at all. Antidepressant are helpful, but only as an addition. The main thing is understanding and support, just human support. I would like to help, I know how it is. People will think that I am also depressed and want to talk to someone, however it is not true - I just want one thing to work in this world. Namely "bro, you are not alone" and next time when we switch places he will say "bro, you are not alone either". So do you like to play games? Right now I play "counter strike". It is amazing how refreshing it can be - we can play together. You will feel relief and slow transition to better state.

I have been where you are.

Many of the things which you have stated you are doing are likely worsening your depression, such as keeping yourself isolated, drinking alcohol (which is a depressant), etc. You may feel like you can't stop from doing these things because you are depressed, so it's a catch 22. The suggestions people have offered so far such as going on walks, staying outside instead of isolating yourself, making connections with people however possible, with the people who have offered them on these forums, or anywhere else (I am happy to chat privately whenever), are all sure fire ways to relieve your pain and get on the path toward stability and happiness.

But I completely understand what it feels like to be so far down that you cannot do these things. And when I have been there I saved myself by remembering the source of myself. Remembering what it feels like to feel hope, remembering what it feels like to believe. And to remember that no matter what happens, if you keep fighting, and keep trying, you will be happy someday, and you will look back and be thankful you kept going. Everyone who has recovered from depression will tell you that it was worth it.

I always kind of related to the below quote, some people find it grim, but I find it most relevant when I am dealing with depression. Please message me if you want to talk more.

“In this sad world of ours sorrow comes to all and it often comes with bitter agony. Perfect relief is not possible except with time. You cannot now believe that you will ever feel better. But this is not true. You are sure to be happy again. Knowing this, truly believing it will make you less miserable now. I have had enough experience to make this statement.”

― Abraham Lincoln