Unable To Talk About Depression

mp15 wrote: The overwhelming pressure of it all is, well, overwhelming...

Be specific about what is overwhelming. On a given day, what expectations do you believe you are failing to meet?

I’m told to be someone I’m not because if I do no one will like me. The expectation I think I’m failing to meet most profoundly is probably just being a happy person in general, I’m constantly told what to do, how to be and it’s getting the better of me. It’s really, really beginning to effect my self-esteem, till the point I feel like I’m not good anymore and there’s no point in me anymore.

mp15 wrote: The expectation I think I’m failing to meet most profoundly is probably just being a happy person in general, I’m constantly told what to do...

How are you failing to "be happy"? What I mean, is what generally makes people happy is doing things they enjoy. What do you enjoy doing and what makes that not possible?

If you are in school and being constantly told what to do, is it a matter of parents and teachers telling you what to do?

What grade/school? Is this college or high school?

Talking about depression here means getting extremely specific about what's going on.

What are your needs? What are the expectations of your environment?

Then figure out how to negotiate with your environment (school, teachers, parents, siblings) to figure out the next step then take that step.

The thing that you need to do the most is talking about it; you can begin where you feel to do it. With a professional is the best.

This is an extract of a book of James Pennebaker: Expressive Writing: Words That Heal

"a landmark study (the Adverse Childhood Experiences Study) of over 12,000 people established that trauma in childhood was a strong predictor of serious illness in adulthood (Stockdale 2011; Brown et al. 2010; Dube et al. 2009; Fellitti 2009.)"

"people who had a trauma and kept that traumatic experience secret were much worse off. Not talking to others about a trauma, we learned, placed people at even higher risk for major and minor illness compared to people who did talk about their traumas."

stay postivie

mp15 wrote:I’m told to be someone I’m not because if I do no one will like me. The expectation I think I’m failing to meet most profoundly is probably just being a happy person in general, I’m constantly told what to do, how to be and it’s getting the better of me. It’s really, really beginning to effect my self-esteem, till the point I feel like I’m not good anymore and there’s no point in me anymore.

It is hard to always meet everybody's expectation on you. Just take serious and do your best on each issues. Work hard every day. I think it is fine already.

mp15 wrote:I’m told to be someone I’m not because if I do no one will like me. The expectation I think I’m failing to meet most profoundly is probably just being a happy person in general, I’m constantly told what to do, how to be and it’s getting the better of me. It’s really, really beginning to effect my self-esteem, till the point I feel like I’m not good anymore and there’s no point in me anymore.

Everyone is born useful. There must be something you are better than other, you just have not found out your talents. Stay confident and be positive.