I want to kill women slowly and painfully

It's why I just said I yearn for a life that is not dictated by success or failure. I am modest enough to accept my ambitions are naive when it comes to what I want to achieve. That doesn't mean I'm compelled to give up on my dreams entirely even if I cannot convince "most people of both genders" I can make them come true.

By the way, I have watched bits of the Orson Welles version of the film "The Trial" during my first year on a BA film course at university, and I must admit I found it quite dull. It's why I do not regret leaving uni after the first year since what I found inspiring was easily browbeaten by what I found not so inspiring. If I live in a society that frowns upon the idea that involves producing films with scenes that include men killing women, then I only aim to please myself if I can.

I'm also pleased with Quentin Tarantino's recent films being somewhat more gratifying than the Kill Bill duo in that regard.

Noty157 wrote:It's why I just said I yearn for a life that is not dictated by success or failure.

...Quentin Tarantino's recent films...

So you yearn for a life not dictated by physics or the laws of nature? What do you wish might dictate your life?

A unique privilege of the human mind when coupled with a society wrapped in an abundance of resources is being able to completely divorce mind from reality.

Take a look at this practice...

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sokushinbutsu

It is only because the individual lives in a secure place with abundant resources that they can meditate peacefully until death while others watch over them and bring them small amounts of sustenance.

Take away theabundance of resources and the privilege of safety and life is dictated by the harsh realities of individual success or failure.

So what you yearn for is a life of abundance provided by others so that you can pursue whatever you wish?

I’m curious as to your thought process.

Tarantino is a good role model for you.

I yearn to levitate. I yearn to be smaller than a nanometer. I yearn to be oblivious to pain, envy and fear of responsibility. I only wish to dictate myself when it comes to how I live so that I can understand exactly what I am responsible for without anyone else telling me otherwise...


I also yearn for Donald Trump to remain president in 2020.

Yearn is an interesting word. We all “yearn” for things.

How much time do you want to spend yearning versus how much time actually doing? In a world of abundance and safety you can spend 24 hours a day yearning to be a nanometer tall if you like.

And like the monk, in 10 years you will still be yearning. If that’s the life you want...a life of yearning, well...okay. Same as a monk can sit around meditating why can’t you sit around yearning to be a nanometer? You can. Enjoy.

As for the wish of only dictating to yourself. Uh...you said you want to be a film producer? You understand to be a producer means to “produce” and involves hiring a director, etc.

As for the 2020 election...the forum has rules against discussing religion or politics. I yearn for that to be different one day.

"Produce"...as in produce a director. This is why I have already spent more time yearning than producing. Not good enough to tell I should actually do it, I yearn to be in the right mood to do it.

Noty157 wrote: I yearn to be in the right mood to do it.

Yearning doesn’t change moods.

But maybe you can yearn for yearning to change moods same as you can yearn to be a nanometer tall.

I said I yearn to be smaller than a nanometer, not as tall as one...Fair to say this is why I yearn to live in a world where I am virtuous in hurting women to death or at least anyone who misreads my messages.

Ah...yearn to yearn...yearn to troll...or actually troll. It’s all good.

See what I mean? Victoria is not impressive at all!

Neither were any of the other incarnations of Victoria.

That's why Victoria is dead. It's also why Linda deserved to get her butt beat by that black man...

Maybe not Linda. Either her, or Olivia Colman.

Victoria was never alive.

No! Victoria died in 1901!!

I yearn for your information to be false.

I yearn for you to shut up and suffer all humiliation for realising my fact was correct. Also for women to suffer humiliation quite rightly so for being too dull to be taken seriously.