PAWS At 7 Months - The Anxiety Alone Makes Me Wanna Kill Mys

7 months still dealing with PAWS. Anxiety feels like at an ultimate worst right now. Everything makes me irritable. I keep having belligerent thoughts against myself and others that drives me into madness. Brain still feels pretty foggy I kinda used to the fog at this point no matter hos frustrating it is. Just the constant stress is hurting my mind and body. Almost everything overwhelms me to the point I feel like I became autistic. I can't the outside world at all. I hide in my room all day and night not wanting to be found. I find most people to be a**hole with complex emotions. It's just too much to deal with. These are one of the days where I really wish I could be drinking my sorrows away right now. This feels like PAWS at it's worst. I keep having dreams of everybody deprecating me. Tell me I'll always be worthless and never amount to sh**. It just keeps making me feels worse. I can't even escape the hostility in my dreams no more. This is has been absolute He'll beyond imagination for me. I can't even relaxed at all not even in my own body.