Rafique wrote:However, if I find that I was right, I'll be more destructive than I originally intended to be.
No you won’t, because destruction requires capability.
One thing the typical angry person has is an inflated sense of the damage they can do. Typically they only destroy themselves.
In rare cases the angry person destroys one other person and in even more rare circumstances they destroy a family. Then there are the 1 in a million cases that make the news.
Why are the vast majority of angry people so incapable? The answer is pretty simple. Anger is a sign the person never learned the skills required to be successful. Having never learned how to negotiate a relationship, they lack the capacity to get what they want. They think that anger and threats will get them somewhere. It gives them a momentary sense of control as they throw a tantrum, but the end result is society deals with them, placing them at the bottom of the hierarchy. The angry person typically fails to get promoted, they fail in relationships, and they fail in life.
Unfortunately the media promotes the extremely rare cases of the angry individual that is destructive and gets what they want. That is probably why you believe yourself capable, because you have been watching YouTube videos that promote anger. You see it, so you think you are capable of immense destruction.
Get off the Internet. Find some role models that can teach you other ways to handle relationships in life than making threats.