by forestcritter » Tue Dec 05, 2017 2:13 pm
I have been where you are.
Many of the things which you have stated you are doing are likely worsening your depression, such as keeping yourself isolated, drinking alcohol (which is a depressant), etc. You may feel like you can't stop from doing these things because you are depressed, so it's a catch 22. The suggestions people have offered so far such as going on walks, staying outside instead of isolating yourself, making connections with people however possible, with the people who have offered them on these forums, or anywhere else (I am happy to chat privately whenever), are all sure fire ways to relieve your pain and get on the path toward stability and happiness.
But I completely understand what it feels like to be so far down that you cannot do these things. And when I have been there I saved myself by remembering the source of myself. Remembering what it feels like to feel hope, remembering what it feels like to believe. And to remember that no matter what happens, if you keep fighting, and keep trying, you will be happy someday, and you will look back and be thankful you kept going. Everyone who has recovered from depression will tell you that it was worth it.
I always kind of related to the below quote, some people find it grim, but I find it most relevant when I am dealing with depression. Please message me if you want to talk more.
“In this sad world of ours sorrow comes to all and it often comes with bitter agony. Perfect relief is not possible except with time. You cannot now believe that you will ever feel better. But this is not true. You are sure to be happy again. Knowing this, truly believing it will make you less miserable now. I have had enough experience to make this statement.”
― Abraham Lincoln