Hi so I've tried reaching out to other about this sort of thing because its been driving me crazy. I made a post on the WeedPAWS subreddit but I've been having this extremely intense health anxiety ever since I quit in late Jan. I had smoked for about a year every day with a few days off here and there. From end of Jan until mid Feb I started ingesting weed oil to help me sleep but I was using a LOT of it throughout the day so maybe that jacked my tolerance up?
So around mid Feb I started having really bad night sweats and my tinnitus got really bad so I got it checked at a clinic. I had some fluid and post-nasal drip so I was advised to take some decongestants. Okay, no big deal. I decided to smoke that night as a treat. When I did I started feeling like I was dying and one of my testicles started having a weird dull ache. At this point I started freaking out about STDs because unfortunately I slept with a friend unprotected on 12/28 and one more time on 1/6. She told me she was clean and I trusted her but ever since then and every since I quit I've been feeling such weird things:
-Night sweating
-Incredibly intense vivid dreams
-Chills / trembling
-Slightly swollen lymph nodes
-Frequent urination / leaky feeling
-Muscle aches in my butt and thigh
-Dull ache in one of my testicles
-Sweaty palms and fingers
-Heavy feeling in my chest around my heart
-Intense heartbeat / palpitations
-Gut distress
-Lack of appetite
I went to the ER on like 2/21 because when I went to the clinic they told me there were abnormalities in my urine like trace blood. They did a bunch of bloodwork and std tests and everything came back negative, they didn't find anything in my urine, said I present healthy etc so they sent me home. Then I went back then next day because I started feeling that leaky feeling I listed above, it felt like I was discharging and like it had pus in it so I went back. Again, bloodwork came back fine, and the next day my GC test came back and it was negative. I went to my doc and she took a swab and said I had a bacterial infection, so I took penicillin to clear it up. That was the middle of this month (march) because it took a while to come back.
So meanwhile I got tested more, I got tested on 3/4 at a private lab and did an entire panel and everything came back negative, even the HIV RNA test. I smoked on 3/6 because I thought it would help but it just made me feel worse. My vivid dreams and night sweating subsided for the night, coincidentally. At this point I was taking the penicillin and that leaky discharge feeling had gone away, so I thought it was probably the bacterial infection.
On 3/13 I was feeling a lot better and I made the mistake of smoking with some friends, I had a LOT that night (probably like .5 grams, we had two joints). The next day my mood improved, but the next evening I started feeling that bizarre leaky discharge feeling and it was incredibly distressing.
Fast-forward to today, i'm on my 18th day of not smoking or anything since I relapsed on the 13th. I've had that leaky feeling STILL here and there. One of my lymph nodes below my right ear swelled up really big two weeks ago and at this point it feels like it's diminished kind of but now the right side of my jaw feels really weirdly numb and like it's twitching, and the same side of my throat feels weirdly lumpy. My right leg was also twitching a bunch the past couple days.
At this point I really feel like I've lost it, I've never had to deal with anything like this from anything and despite all my negative tests I keep feeling like I have HIV or something. My health anxiety isn't letting me live any kind of life and i don't really know what to do anymore. I got a full panel and bloodwork done again today at the lab by my doc's office and I'm stressing so much waiting for it all to come back. At this point it's been 90 days and I know it should be impossible for me to test HIV-pos at this point but I cant stop worrying.
Not to sound too crazy but my health-anxiety is just through the roof because with every single day I feel something new wrong with me and it's not letting me live my life. I don't really know what to do if I end up testing positive for something, I really hope not. But this is driving me crazy because I still feel a little leaky and my jaw is weirdly numb and I'm not sure what to do or think anymore. But I've been to so many doctors at this point (primary, urologist, ENT, called the HIV hotline) and had so many tests done and I've been told I'm fine over and over and it doesn't feel like it. I haven't had ANY fevers too. Anyone have an experience like this? It's just been excruciating and it's making me legit suicidal because it's been following me around everywhere and I haven't felt a sense of peace all year