Hello there mmmmm11
I am not sure what you mean by
Problem is I still want to be their friend, they just don't acknowledge me as the new me.
- How are your friends treating you then? If you could give me an example of a situation, I would probably understand better. Do you mean envy? Or that they disapprove of things you do?
In terms of losers and winners, I think that can change quite a lot when you get a bit older. I don't know what it is about schools and colleges but you get the label loser or winner so easily. And you tend to stick those same labels on others as well. I found that after I finished school, I got to know different people from different backgrounds and I forgot about the labels. They were more just people - someone was into sports, someone was a real nerd and it did not mean one was better than the other.
Since getting into sports myself, I notice that I pay much more attention to sporty-looking guys whereas before I didn't. I have a male friend who is a surfer on a pro level and he does not drink and eats healthily and I just really admire him and his lifestyle so much. So you see, sometimes it is important that you find people who understand and share your values in life to make you feel that you belong and are not a stranger! Which I understand is a bit of what your friends are trying to make you feel at the moment (correct me if I am wrong).
In terms of the anger - can you tell me when it occurs? Is it purely related to your friends or do you notice it in other situations as well?
Anyway, hey, chin up, at least you have the benefit of having good self-confidence, that'll get you far. Once you get this thing clear in your head and understand what is what, you'll be fine. It's good that you've come here and talked about it, that's the first step towards a solution.
Best wishes