Anonymous02 wrote:Now the only thing I’m worried ...
Well, that’s tough. That’s one good reason that you don’t do things you shouldn’t do. Your behaviors, grinding on young children, don’t make you bad or evil. Yet understandably, you have a pretty good idea that you shouldn’t have done it and that brings you into this forum. You know that grinding was a less than good behavior. You know it was a behavior you should not have done.
Now you’re worried. Okay...what do you want to hear? Not to worry? No. That is life. That is what happens when any of us do things we believe we shouldn’t have done. That’s the penance, the regret that we all pay in life. And it is part of life. There is no magic cure, there are no special words of comfort that makes worry go away.
IF it was to ever come up, which is highly, highly unlikely...you simply apologize and move forward. Most likely they are clueless and don’t realize anything was out of sorts. Therefore, don’t go making an issue out of something that isn’t an issue for them.
The only reason you would make an issue of it is to get attention for yourself or try to deal with your own feelings. That would just be that much more wrong, dragging innocent children that have no idea just so you can resolve your feelings.
Currently it is only an issue for you, and it should stay that way. That’s your slight burden to carry. Don’t beat yourself up too much. As I have pointed out...as well as others...your behaviors are not uncommon. It is fairly normal to explore when we reach puberty. You are not the only teen to have behaved in a way where they experience some regret.
You need to forgive yourself and move on. Endeavor from this point forward to behave in ways that are healthy and true to your values. If you can’t seem to forgive yourself, seek a confidential 3rd party to confide or confess to. You’ve in some ways already confessed and been forgiven in here. Multiple people have told you that it’s okay, to put it behind you.