Hey, I hope the person reading this is doing well. I can describe myself as a 20. y.o , pretty much introverted, sometimes shy, generally anxious person. It was always like that. I think these situations didn't bother me much back then, but now I am stepping into being an adult, they just affect me more. Because I realized that humans are just social creatures. And sitting at home all day long, not interacting with any other will not get me nowhere. I thought being that way was just normal, so even though I realize I was wrong, it just feels so unnatural to change my view to life. These thoughts are constantly in my mind for a couple of weeks. The more I think about it, more I feel anxious,insecure and eventually I basically don't want to do any single thing.
Just a quick example, I am talking with a person for some time that I truly love and care, I know she cares about me too. And we may start a relationship but then these things come to my mind. Like probably I will start to overthink about some tiny things and I end up not making her happy. Because even now I am overthinking about things and feeling uncomfortable. This cycle keeps repeating and eventually I am becoming more introverted.
I was diagnosed OCD and anxiety disorder 5 years ago and I had antidepressant treatment for a year. I am considering psychological help these days, but this time I don't want any chemical treatment. I know that it is not enough, also I must have the courage to change. But just thinking going to a therapist also gives me anxiety.