Hello everyone!
I may not be able to explain it clearly as my brain is severely groggy from having slept for mere 30-36 hours in the past 4 months.
From intense speculation of my problem and from talking to people with chronic insomnia lasting for decades on end, I have to come to an understanding that it's only an 'idea' an idea that one 'can't sleep un-aided' that makes insomnia persist.
On this idea, piles up the debilitating anxiety. It's very similar to having an anxious episode thinking of having anxiety. A vicious cycle that never breaks.
We begin to identify ourselves with anxiety and hence it's difficult to make it loose its grip. Knowing for a fact if I do not overcome a my SEVERE sleep anxiety, I might loose my congitive functioning in the next few months, I am desperate to look for a way. Pills don't work as I fight myself to have natural sleep.
I have always been a good sleeper. However, after the onset of insomnia 5 months back, I developed a phobia around it which needs to undone. It's very similar to acrophobia or any other phobia. Except it's dreading going to bed knowing you're anxiety will barre you from sleep. Fear of not being able to sleep' > and the fear/idea doesn't let you sleep.
I wanted to know if there is anyone who can offer their help to help me erase the idea of ever having the onset of Sleep Anxiety. Erase the idea that I ever 'Feared going to sleep'. .Im sure it is possible. I have seen hypnotists help people overcome their phobia's or help them erase the memory of a particular event/person. Im sure I can get my thoughts manipulated enough to forget I ever had insomnia/anxiety. Once that happens, the cycle stops.
(Please excuse my english as it isn't my first language)
Also, I have tried manipulating my thoughts through self-suggestion but it is not helping and only increases the anxiety. Then the anxiety starts revolving around 'What if I fail at convincing myself'
( I do not have any other general anxiety issues. )
Hope you all have a beautiful day.