Hi, I am a 17 yr old female who, for the past 6 months, has suffered intense derealization and anxiety about death that was caused by a panic attack.
Here is some background on me and the situation:
When I was 10, I was diagnosed with OCD. I was never put on any medication as therapy really helped me. Flash forward 5 years later when I was 15, and I began to have obsessive thoughts about anything and everything. It continually got worse but I never did anything about it because I had experienced much worse. On Thanksgiving day of 2016, I was about to go to bed when I had this awful thought about death. I all of a sudden realized that when I died, I wouldn't live in the world that I live in right now. I would be nothing. I grew up in a non religious family so I didn't have any perspective on the subject. I absolutely freaked out, and passed out on my bedroom floor. My mom walked in after she heard a thud. She freaked out obviously. Up until that point in my life, I had never had a panic attack before.
Anyway, I haven't felt the same since that day. Nothing feels real around me. My head is stuffed full cotton and I get thes awful migraines that I never had before. Nothing seems to relieve this feeling. I get caught in a thought loop and freak out about having another panic attack again. I have been seeing a therapist and it hasn't really helped. I went to the doctor and was first perscribed Wellbutrin but that just made me worse. I have just been perscribed Prozac. I just want to cry all the time and don't care/feel anything anymore. I can't seem to relax and feel really depressed. I am a fitness freak and working out doesn't seem to help. My dad is Irish and Catholic (but never pressed it on me or my mom and never went to Church when I was growing up) so I am meeting some people from his Church to maybe help with this issue. Do you think this will help?
At this point I am wondering if anyone has experienced anything similar and what they did to help rid the feeling. I am also wondering if anyone has any suggestions for this.
Thank you so so so much!! I feel crazy and really need some perspective on the problem!!