Hello Everyone
Funerals and weddings -- ahhhh the time when people who secretly hate each other get together to fake being a unified family. .For sure, most family members care about each other. It is the handful of individuals who are spiteful, envious, and hateful who suck goodwill out of the room. While in the midst, I feel the tension. In response, I watch the clock for the first time I can make an exit, and not be called out for being the first one to leave.
My fast exit relieves me to the immediate anxiety, but robs me to the joy of living. I am getting older, and can appreciate my life has been filled with fast exits and being alone. Today, I say no more.
I am on my way to a funeral. There will be a lot of people there. I know them all, and they will want to know how I have been doing. Within the next 45 minutes, I plan to become a guru of small talk. Failing that, I will change the subject to the deceased. What I am refusing to do is my usual fast exit. I plan to stay for the entire event, and visit a bit after the service.
Progress and Perfection!