I am a drug addict and have been since i was 15.I am now 23 and recently did 3 1/2 years in prison for selling prescription pills.
My best friend in the whole world at the time overdosed and died ,my pills i sold being a contributing factor.I was sober for some time after being released but all the old memories that haunt me are everywhere.I started using opiates again.I am so torn between getting high and forgetting everything and my best friend which i lost to the same drugs i am taking.
Ive made the decision to start going back to NA meeting and quit using drugs.I cant sleep ,I cant hardly do anything without thinking of my friend.He is in my dreams quite often and it just makes it so hard.I feel so guilty,I killed my best friend.And now i am slowly but surely killing myself .....and i dont want to care...i dont want this sh** no more...but i do care and it is hurting me so bad to live with this.