http://www.uncommonforum.com/viewtopic.php?t=33520&start=1155#p878829 If you wonder who I am, or where such a strange english came from!
This post is mostly about my "practice" in context, feel free to scroll to the end for the factual issue.
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11 years. More than a decade ago, I made my first contact with hypnosis and it was a revelation, to say the least. Back then, the easiest books that I could find in the library around were written by Paul C-Jagot or some unknown adepts of animal magnetism - they were heavy, highly theoretical and of the bias of their era. Still : the practical part, trance and suggestion, was working kinda smoothly!
That was the first beginning. Over the course of 3 weeks, I've make an impromptu representation in a visual art class in high school, successfully putting in trance one of my classmate and unbalancing another with a pass but my mother into trance several time and refrain her to smoke for a whole nigth (she's a 2packs/day compulsive smoker). And other smalls, empowering success.
Then I get distracted : gym, girls and Esoterism happen. Still, some of the basics of suggestions and subcommunication were integrated.
In College, I've encountered that archetype of young hypnotist that we might have all meet : neglected, ugly, shady and opportunistic. He was known in the school (negatively). The disgusting sight of his "approach" was sufficient to avoid any mention to hypnosis for the next 5 years - and to largely focus on overall psychology, sociology, gin and fighting - eh, I have no pretention to have been on a higher ethical frame back then, my vices were different. I started traveling there too.
4 years ago, with a friend who was an amateur hypnotist, in the street of the Old Town in Quebec, we decided to try some impromptu hypnosis (thanks to M. Jacquin "Trilby Connection"). Damn, it was HARD! Not the hypnosis, the approach!
I have a average frame, but still look slightly threatening. Clothes and Grooming help a little, but not that much. My face is scarred with acnea remnants and old cuts, my eyes deep in their orbits, one hand tattooed all over, broad shoulders, bald headed and bearded most of the time, etc.
So, most of the time, I was stopped by a worried look that my prospects were showing - I babbled something polite and turn away. Over a week, I've hypnotized around 7 people in two "mini-impromptu representations" outside that were attracting quite a little crowd and bring us more money than expected, for 10 minutes of work. I got two abreaction in the second seance and get to my favorite vice :
OVER-THINKING.
I've been doing that since then. Not a week without thinking about hypnosis. Without the strong f*cking desire to awake groups of strangers to their potential, to sell them the idea that they CHOOSE AND COMMAND what happens in their life. Not a single moment that I doubt that it is part of my Fate.
And not a single more trance. Maybe two or three subjects, but in HIGHLY biased context - if you know what I mean.
In the meantime, I've been salesman, security guard & bouncer. If you've ever took one of those position, you know that the skills required for outstanding success are totally related with the one needed for hypnosis.
And here we are.
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I left everything behind before Christmas.
House, Ex-fiancee, Car, Community - the province that saw me grow. Fear and financial stability too - that was the cost.
I need to fulfill my vision. And it involve making impromptu representations and then small shows that are mostly oriented around the idea of empowering the spectators. Let them know that their mood, tribe, occupation and very reality are in their hands - that they have the choice.
Even the choice not to choose.
I want to make this point everywhere around the planet. I live in a 12L backpack - yet, am closer now to your archetype of a Monk than a hobo.
The next step is easy : get in the street and practice. But I'm progressing slowly on that. I've got massive fear to approach people like before - it is strange. I believe that I make the topic so-much-of-a-big-deal right now that it make me freeze. Rationalizing doesn't work.
Did it happen to you? How did you overcame that?
Thanks!