by cric0624 » Thu Nov 16, 2017 12:42 am
Hi all, I've posted on this forum last February and it helped immensely. Quick backstory: I've been with my boyfriend for five years and he is the perfect human - our relationship is amazing and I couldn't ask for more. Last Feb I woke up in the middle of the night with this overwhelming anxiety that I didn't love him anymore, I had to leave him.. all the usual relationship anxiety things. I went to see a therapist, told my bf everything, and went on medication. It was a long, long road, but by the summer I was feeling more like my normal self, with some bumps in the road.
The past few weeks, I've been feeling very empty again. We go to the same college, and I dealt with a little relationship anxiety when we moved back to school, but realized it was general anxiety about being back at school that I pinned on my relationship. Now, though, this feels different. I truly feel empty. The other night I honestly truly told him I was afraid that this was it for our relationship and that I had to leave. We ended up talking things over and I didn't leave.
I just don't know what to do. Something about this time feels different, but I don't know why. Life in general is pretty stressful right now: school, his sister is in premature labor so we're all worried, I'm taking exams next week. My mind keeps telling me that this isn't relationship anxiety this time and that it's real, I just don't love him anymore. I don't want that to be true. I guess I'm just here for some support, and to share my story.