I posted once before with my story but now I'm more or less just wondering about my symptoms and if anyone experienced these. The first month and a half was ridden with anxiety, nightmares, dizziness, intrusive thoughts that caused more anxiety, etc. Now I'm on day 57 and things have gotten weird lately. It's as if due to the intrusive thoughts sending my anxiety through the roof, my body is now on overdrive with heightened senses. I feel like I see and hear things more than I used to (not hallucinations), but I fear becoming mentally ill since this all started, so it's as if me anticipating that has made me see everything that moves out of the corner of my eye and checking every noise I hear to see if it's really there. My memory has been complete sh** lately too, I'm forgetting things all the time and constantly mixing up words and my thoughts just seem jumbled. PLEASE help I'd love some feedback, I'm getting concerned.
-what types of intrusive thoughts did you experience? Unfortunately mine involve very dark stuff that scares the sh** out of me, because I know it's not me
-did your thoughts seem weird and paranoid at times? Almost like your brain is just throwing weird unnecessary sh** at you that makes no sense
-experience horrible memory issues??
-constantly read online about your symptoms, fearing you're becoming mentally ill?
-become socially withdrawn? I have no desire to go to work at the moment because I'm constantly preoccupied with this. However I do love being with my family still, it helps me find relief from this.
Please don't sugar coat things, I just want to know if people have gone through the same stuff. I cast no judgement about your intrusive thoughts and don't think you're a bad person, I understand it's very hard to talk about. I've seen my doctor 3 times now and she's assured me it's just very high anxiety, but never really acknowledged it being due to weed, though I did share my history of very heavy use (3 years of daily use of concentrates, very potent flower too)
Never dealt with ANY of this ever, it all started when I had a massive panic attack, followed by about 3 more of them on the 3 occasions I relapsed. Weed was never the same after the first panic attack.
I just want my life back!!!!