Here I am again, it's been almost 12 months and the black dog is back. I possibly brought it upon myself by counting down the days until the milestone was reached (last came end of August last year) feeling a little edgy for a week or two until it hit on Saturday with a wake up call at 6am with a full blow anxiety attack followed by anxiousness ever since until I had a little meltdown yesterday and now have the usual depressive thoughts, extreme tiredness, loss of appetite, you know the drill.....
The reason for my meltdown? Both parents are 81 years old, father has vascular dementia, mother recently broke her hip in two places, now won't do what docs and physio telling her in order to get better and as I live about 1/4 mile away I am the first contact for them - and they are very demanding, to the point of 4 phone calls in just 1 hour one to make them a cup of tea

Meltdown happened due to various things going on whilst waiting for the ambulance with everyone who was there. I think the stress has been building up over the last few weeks and has also contributed to my woe.
So here I am again, sitting at my desk, foregoing lunch, typing here as a means of therapy I suppose.
Nearly stayed home today, actually phoned work to say I had problems with parents to sort out but came in anyway. Wife wants me to see GP so I guess I will make an appointment today but by the time I get to see them I will hopefully feel a little better (I have upped my meds by a tablet a day as this has worked in the past on doc's orders).
Thanks for reading....
