At first my mothers mum died and she was close to me. That is when i stopped eating. I couldnt eat as i felt real guilty and i couldnt bring myself to do it. I was about 16 at the time and i weighed a measly 5.5 stone. Which wasnt good and i got real ill from it.
I have had moments from then which arise occasionally where i gag if food is consumed, or, food gets too much for me of which was a bite or two. Usually i don't get like that too often but now it's become like before but stronger; till the point where i don't eat, sleep or even drink anything.
I rarely feel hunger, or a need/want for food. Nor do i feel any pains that come with not eating. I've had days when i wouldn't eat for a week and then eat again.
I don't know what to do, what to even think about this. As it is affecting my life, although, i don't find it to be an eating disorder. But i have come here to ask because people here have experience.
I hope to hear from you all soon.