I want to kill women slowly and painfully

Mayfair wrote: I convinced someone to commit. I have urges to do it again I got great joy out of it. IMO convincing someone to take their own life is the perfect murder. Don't worry about what other people say, do what you feel is best. Just accept the consequences if they happen with a clean conscience.

Oh, Jason.

Divine Love. That's what you need. Find yourself a good spiritual counselor.

Your thinking habits and your (unconscious) thoughts about past hurts are covering up the Divine Love that is within you and within each one of us. Until you find this Love within yourself, you will be suffering. It's the same for every human being, to varying degrees, which means you've got plenty of company; you are not alone. You are not alone, neither in this predicament of suffering, nor in the very real sense of the deep down Love that is You—it is always there.

I know that you don't care what I say, think, or do. And that's okay with me. I'm not fighting you. I'm loving you.

Blessings.

Wait it out. Women have the advantage in life before the age of roughly 25. Afterwards, the tables turn and men have the advantage.

quietvoice wrote:

Mayfair wrote: I convinced someone to commit. I have urges to do it again I got great joy out of it. IMO convincing someone to take their own life is the perfect murder. Don't worry about what other people say, do what you feel is best. Just accept the consequences if they happen with a clean conscience.

Oh, Jason.

Divine Love. That's what you need. Find yourself a good spiritual counselor.

Your thinking habits and your (unconscious) thoughts about past hurts are covering up the Divine Love that is within you and within each one of us. Until you find this Love within yourself, you will be suffering. It's the same for every human being, to varying degrees, which means you've got plenty of company; you are not alone. You are not alone, neither in this predicament of suffering, nor in the very real sense of the deep down Love that is You—it is always there.

I know that you don't care what I say, think, or do. And that's okay with me. I'm not fighting you. I'm loving you.

Blessings.

As much as I respect you quietvoice, I sincerely pray mayfair attempts what he wishes, stumbles and botches what he attempts to do, gets caught and beaten half to death, then spends the rest of his pathetic existence in jail where miserable losers like him belong, before getting murdered there. And just before he dies, he will attempt to repent, but everyone will celebrate his death and downfall.

I also pray the same happens to Rayfam or whatever his name is, though I have a feeling he's still salvageable and only believes this nonsense because he's an impressionable youth. Whoever's not monitoring these kid's internet usage is doing a pathetic job at parenting.

I don't have the time to read all this BS.

OP, you ARE A MORON.
Do you truly imagine women aren't HUMAN BEINGS, are you a throw back to delusional stories?

Strange how past generations who adored royalty embraced women when it was convenient, and then SAY THESE ILLUSTRIOUS WOMEN ARE RULERS, not female. This has been going on for thousands of years, as these WOMEN WHERE CAPABLE RULERS, championed by their families .

I'm not a fan of aristocracy, but people thousands of years ago appreciated the leadership qualities of just human beings who are female!
How backwashed and ignorant is this age and it's muddled culturers, reveling in ignorance!

So, I looked through every part, and not one is from me. Last time that happened I said something and then new parts magically appeared. I wonder, can it happen again as currently, searching on my handle not one post from me exists here! Which is BS, I remember this madness! This site is a cluster f of editing by morons.

Now suddenly my past posts exists, at least for me. It's this a work of creepy controlling or just a broken web infrastructure coincidentally erasing me?

Don't know what you're talking about, John. I can see your posts. Are you sure you're quite well?

What is the relationship with your mother or elder sister?

I have fantasies about myself killing women. Thing is, I don't really think I am a misogynist, because my overall feeling towards women is more boredom than it is anger. I don't think a misogynist would want to kill a woman if he or she didn't find it fun somehow. Although I have made a few female friends in my life, it hasn't stopped me disliking other women.

One of my least favourite films is the rape revenge film I Spit On Your Grave, which involves a woman getting revenge on 5 men who raped her. I was able to message the main actress online by at first telling her what my favourite part of the film I probably did like to then telling her I wanted to kill her in a twisted sexual gory way. I knew I didn't like what the men did to her, but I also didn't like what she did to them. Conversely, another sexually gory film I came across was called A Serbian Film, about a male pornstar who gets hired to get into much more twisted sexual antics in the porn industry. I knew I liked A Serbian Film far more than I Spit On Your Grave, because of the contrast in terms of storylines and what happens to certain characters which ultimately makes me realise one thing: I only find it palatable for men to destroy women one way or another...preferably on film.

I can never really take this problem out on any man or woman close to me, because I know I have a family who do love me and support me as best as they can even when I'm not convinced they support me well enough. At least I know how to make a distinction between film and real life, because I know I can find myself in a moment which involes not wanting to make that distinction. That's why I yearn to be a really successful actor and film producer which does involve gory scenes of men killing women, but so long it is combined with other film dynamics such as good storylines, plot twists, theme and character developments and so on.

By the way Rafique, sorry to hear about your grandmother nagging you all the time. One of my grandmothers sadly died when I was only 3, but at least my other grandmother is still alive and well while fighting cancer. I hope she remains more than well enough to do some cooking this Boxing Day.

So you want to produce films to live out your dark, macabre, cruel imaginations.

Okay. Plenty of people do that. There are directors famous for their sick, twisted imaginations.

Best of luck to you.

Not just my imaginations, my dreams too. If there is a future for completely reanimating what everyone has actually dreamed about, that's the kind of film I want to produce...and I'm talking about as accurately dreamt as possible.

Noty157 wrote:I yearn to be a really successful actor and film producer

You aren't going to be one. Don't feel bad; less than one per cent of people realise their dreams. You simply haven't got what it takes.

By the way Rafique, sorry to hear about your grandmother nagging you all the time.

All the time? Rafique could think of only one occasion.

Rafique wrote:

quietvoice wrote:Please provide at least three (3) examples of a situation that your grandmother put you in that evoked from you extreme anger.

To be honest, I'm having trouble giving more than 1 example. Maybe my grandmother wasn't so bad.

I certainly won't be successful if I realise I don't need to be. It's not good enough to either have goal orientation or just be told to set yourself certain goals. I am entitled to be inspired to make an effort into reaching cetain goals, and if there is any reason why I do not taking my yearnings too seriously, it's because I only intend to live as flexibly as I can whether or not I do achieve anything. It's why I yearn for a life that is not dictated by success or failure no matter how crucial it is.

Noty157 wrote:I am entitled to be inspired to make an effort into reaching cetain goals

"Gory scenes of men killing women" will never make you "a really successful actor and film producer" because women are at least half the paying public and most of us are aware that snuff films (whether real or faked) incite unstable and disenfranchised men such as you and the OP to go out specifically to torture and kill women. Most people of both genders frown on that kind of thing, so your audience would be miniscule.

If there is a future for completely reanimating what everyone has actually dreamed about, that's the kind of film I want to produce.

You're not going to be able to film what everyone has dreamed about, so if you're serious about this goal I suggest you lower your sights a bit. Too big a goal sets you up for failure.

Franz Kafka's books were about the undercurrent of nightmare in his own life. I'd watch that kind of film. https://www.bing.com/videos/search?q=fr ... &FORM=VIRE