by Pdxdrummerchic » Sat Sep 15, 2018 11:46 am
I have had PTSD, anxiety, and Panic disorder as my main diagnosis for about a decade. That being said I have worked with a multitude of professionals practicing DBT, CBT, medications, breathing, meditation and other therapeutic skills. However, I have recluse to an agoraphobic state. If I try to push through them, I am bound by the symptoms for days. I have since, lost my job and income as my FMLA ran out. Nothing that is recommended is getting me back to my baseline. I just want this to end. I've been through this before multiple times, but never this long or strong. They've tested my levels of of everything so it isn't a metabolic issue necessarily. I really need some hope or guidance, because my psychiatrist, therapist, PCP and anyone else who knows whats going on is giving me a bandage solution while I am bleeding out from the artery. I can't even walk 2 houses away before the dizziness, blurred vision, and leg shakes lead me to the panic that I am going to die. I can't stand in lines of any kind, so I have only been shopping like 3 times since June, with support assistance with me. I used to be highly functional and actually worked with adults with disabilities. Now my disability is crumbling my world. I have not hope at this point. This is a last ditch effort. Thanks for reading.