GPA, very outgoing, work hard play hard type of guy, fit, and super exited to make relationships and network throughout my college career while heading towards a field in Wall Street. What I noticed while living in my dormitory is that most of the kids there didn’t have to work or really worry about money while attending school. Very different to how I grew up. I grew up in a small apartment with my parents my whole life and had to work the minute it was legal to buy things I wanted. I was going to school full time and working full time with only being able to party or have fun once a week. I became very jealous of my friends as I wanted to relax a bit more and not work as much so I can socialize more.
Long story short, I became cool with a lot of different fraternities and made friends with a lot of girls. Started selling drugs and weed to make money so I wouldn’t have to work and can just focus on school and partying, networking, etc.
1 year later I’m selling about 100 pounds of weed a month. Stopped selling drugs because I thought I was too risky to do both. Just sticked to weed and I was 21 making about 20-60k a month in cash. I was traveling every week hitting strip clubs, banging hookers, going to the best clubs with vip, you name it. Few months later once of my best friends set me up. Luckily for the cops they caught me on a bad day but sh** it was still a good amount. Got caught with 14 lbs of weed and 40k cash.
They were really try to pin me hard I mean 4-5 years but with an amazing lawyer I was able to get a deal to do 6 months of prison and 2 years of parole.I’m about 2 months away from being free.
I now have a felony on my record of marijuana which I’ll hopefully be able to expunge in a year or 2 as my state just legalized it. I’m kinda lost now. Don’t know what to do once I’m done. I used to be extremely motivated and goal oriented. I’ve still been going to the gym but career wise, idk what to do. I have about 25k saved up since I got released about 19 months ago. I also just quit my job to go on unemployment in order to work on my self spiritually and figure out what I really want to do.
Oh and while going through all of this, I too have been suffering deeply from PAWS. I dealt with it while I was in prison which was horrifying and while on parole (present time). I’m about 2 1/2 years sober and I still feel some symptoms. Mostly brain fog and short term memory loss. Even though I’ve gone so long being sober, I think about drinking or smoking a blunt literally every single day. I know once I start drinking or smoking my symptoms will subside but with everything I’ve gone through, I know I have to do better.
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