Hey i will just go on
Since i was young (age around 7-9) i was the boy that everybody makes jokes of him everybody laughed at me cause i seem dumb i lack social skills... i accepted that and worked on it unconciously till i formed my own personality and become a better sociable persson then i relapsed it was like this since my childhood after that i only faced failur in my life... one after another i was... i don't know what was happening then i've become suicidel like for real i attempted to kill my self twice without success (i tried to cut my veins and eat a hollot of medicins... both time my body reacted and saved me)
So after that i tried to recover but i was always that boy howm everybody make fun of him..even my familly... and know after the girl i loved left me for a really dumb reason i see only darkness i use drugs just to escape my worthless felthy life and know as my pain and ageny grows stronger nothing can make me forget it i sens the pain in every each part of my body i've become like a zombie without brain i do thing like for nothing i'm always siting in my room all the summer i didn't go out like even one day... i feel i'm gonna attempt another suicide...cause i don't have any goal in my life i don't sens or see one... i don't know how to be sociable... i don't feel conftable in my skin i realy hate my self ! Please can anybody help me ? I really need that help to save my life a have little glimer of hope in anyone to help me...