Inappropiate urges to kill

Print out this post and take it to your therapist, possibly the same individual that diagnosed you with Aspergers. They should be able to provide some clarity and help. When a person tortures or kills for adrenaline it is a sign of a type of mental pathology that requires professional help.

Dear Aspiecat,

Well, you DID write to us, and though you are diagnosed with Aspergers (a severe form of Autism which can hide very well behind adequate communication and cognitive skills, but reveals itself by both physical and social clumsiness and sometimes odd manners of expressing things) you seem to be well aware of the seriousness of the problem you are presenting to us.

Just how serious? Well, up until now I have never asked somebody to go for professional help.... it is what everybody else says, and so I figure, 'why bother'. But I feel that you are an immanent danger to others -- people and small animals... even larger animals -- and to your own future. As it stands now, if you were to get institutionalized or get some special meds that could 'really hold you down' (lyrics from a Rock Song I know), well, with some extended treatment and medical advances, this could all just blow away.

BUT! If you were caught actually murdering a 'Pet Class' animal, and it could be construed as 'Cruelty', you would be in serious trouble. IF you killed or significantly harmed a Human Being, well, it simply does not matter about your diagnosis of Aspergers.... it would go to the Criminal Justice System.... you would get a permanent Criminal Record, and if you were lucky you would be Institutionalized indefinitely (even when you got well, the legal details of it all might require for you to stay 'locked up') and if you do not have a good lawyer, well, you would simply be tossed in Prison.... maybe death row.... if you actually deliberated and planned a murder.

Turn yourself in right now! If the Hospital will not take you, go to the Police, before you actually commit a crime and go on record, legally, that the Public needs to be protected from you. That way, when Things get better, you will be able to go free. Normally I would speak about being free of guilt and feeling socially responsible, but, with Aspergers, an appeal to conscience might be a bit much, though I am impressed that you had the Instinct to write to us.

thank you so much for confiding in us. Now, before another moment goes by, turn yourself in. Really. This is the first time in my life I ever gave such advice, But I think it is really important now.