by HavenofStars » Sun Dec 18, 2016 2:20 am
Hi. I am 11, and I have had a fear of sleep. I have a window next to my bed and the house if old, so I'm terrified that someone is watching me or something. I have to sleep with a nightlight and say a ritual every night or else I won't feel safe, and even then, I rest uneasily. I'm scared to to into my room and sleep, but my parents get angry at me when I try to not sleep in there so I can rest, then they send me back. I jump at the smallest sound and I also recently had a case of sleep paralysis (I think is is, at least). I woke up, and for a few seconds, I couldn't move. I slowly started to move my arm, but I moved very slowly, as I couldn't move any faster. I opened my eyes, and I saw flashes of terrifying images, and when I closed them, I saw skulls, as if I bad been viewing an x-ray. Again, not sure if it was sleep paralysis or a dream, or even something else. I couldn't really tell. I had just woken up from a lucid nightmare, so I thought I was awake. Now, after months of this ritualistic behavior, I get angry at small things, such as imperfections in clothes. I haven't a single clue what to do or what is wrong with me. I appreciate all of your help. Thank you.