by JohnDoe123 » Fri Jul 16, 2021 5:24 pm
Ditto on everything you said, BUT, this is all NORMAL! I’m five months, today, and I can reassure you, you’re NOT alone. No matter how crazy you feel, it WILL NOT kill you, it WILL NOT last forever, and every single day without weed brings you closer to a normal healthy life.
I’m five months today with no weed, not after a few years smoking, but after FIFTY YEARS! I’m an old hippie, who’d finally had enough, and I can tell you, EVERYTHING you’re experiencing IS normal, it’s the price of admission for smoking weed. Didn’t anyone tell you? Lol. Just kidding.
My worst month was #4, horrible, horrible nightmares, heart palpitations, anxiety, tinnitus, dizziness, insomnia, high blood pressure, etc. I, too, was in the ER, ekg, heart scan, CAT scans, twice, nothing ever shows up, which should reassure you, but I understand anxiety is the absence of reason and logic.
Month 5 for me was better, everything is less severe, seems a bit more constant, but I do have good days at least.
If I can offer something that’s helped me a lot, try to “float” through the bad times. There’s a site called THE ANXIETY COACH, where they talk about our tendency to fight and reason our way out of anxiety or panic attacks, which always makes it worse. Instead, just accept them, “float” through them without resisting, knowing why you’re having them(PAWS), that they will end, I even laugh at them sometimes!
Your brain is realigning your neural pathways as God designed them to work. It takes time, and you WILL get better. Don’t give up, quitting an addiction takes enormous courage! True failure rate is huge, but the successful reward for quoting is larger.
Hang in there, you’re closer to freedom now than when you started this journey. O n e. D a y. A t. A. T I m e.