I've been overweight all my life. I can't even remember what it's like to "look good" or "be fit".
I've been stuck at the same weight for a year and a half now, 240lbs with general fluctuations. 1-2lbs a day. I've only really been closely monitoring it for that past interval, so I can't give any specific measurements before then, all I can give is the opening statement. I've been overweight all my life. I've tried to change on several occasions, with very limited results, and always within a week, always returning to square one.
I don't know if it's a discipline thing, or if my body just has a personal vendetta against my want to change.
Some background info, I suffer from an inferiority complex of sorts. I've always been in the shadow of others or hid myself because of my looks and/or lack of skills (in pretty much anything).
If I had some sort of sentience in my early years, I could have prevented this from occurring, but at this point it's become a vicious circle. I feel inferior because of my looks and I emotionally eat because I feel inferior. There are other factors as well, but in the grand scheme of things, I think this is the biggest, and the oldest problem in my standing.
I'm sick of being this way and it's slowly been eating away at my entire life. I'm convinced if I beat this, I can turn the rest of my life around.
Please help. I don't know what to do. Weight loss is always on my mind, but always elusive.