My big flaws.
When i'm interested in a woman i start becoming morbid if she doesn't show that she likes me.i don t understand why i am looking for a codependence relationship.
Plus nowadays this fears girls that want more and more partners.
Guess what? wrote:every woman has a ton of men around her, Following that way means avoiding almost all of them. They for first live in a low self esteem condition, kept alive to the continue positive feedback they have from men. Very few women has not positive feedbacks.
Guess what? wrote:I see what you are saying.
Low self esteem has a cause, doesn't it?
I don't woke up a morning and say "I'm nothing"... others treat me in that way. Someone once told me 'you know how much you worth' the same person that left me and then saying 'you are no one who to give importance'.
every woman has a ton of men around her, Following that way means avoiding almost all of them. They for first live in a low self esteem condition, kept alive to the continue positive feedback they have from men. Very few women has not positive feedbacks.
But I can have big self esteem and being alone at the same time. Once i was proud of what I was, but there wasn't good results,so i realized.
Candid wrote:You have some very strange ideas about women. That is the number one reason why there isn't one in your life.
We are people with feelings, just like men are.
Livetowin wrote:Guess what? wrote:I see what you are saying.
Low self esteem has a cause, doesn't it?
I don't woke up a morning and say "I'm nothing"... others treat me in that way. Someone once told me 'you know how much you worth' the same person that left me and then saying 'you are no one who to give importance'.
every woman has a ton of men around her, Following that way means avoiding almost all of them. They for first live in a low self esteem condition, kept alive to the continue positive feedback they have from men. Very few women has not positive feedbacks.
But I can have big self esteem and being alone at the same time. Once i was proud of what I was, but there wasn't good results,so i realized.
Your last sentence sums up my point. You are wrapping your identity into these experiences rather than looking at the choices you're making. And as Candid said, you need to get away from this stereotype of women. In fact, you need to start looking at people not as what they are, but who they are. Believe it or not we are all individuals. If the only kind of person you pick are incredibly vain and attention seekers, then you continue to pick from the wrong traits. You're looking at surface elements and not the actual person. As I said in my analogy, you play with the sharks.
Here's the added problem you have not considered. Until you can learn to see yourself as you are and treat people as individuals, you will not be the kind of person you need to be to attract that special person who would otherwise connect with you. Why? Because right now your value system is superficial. A person of substance will not waster their time with a person chasing props for self gratification.
You have your low self-esteem cloaked in this false notion that you have "high standards". Based on what you're saying, that is not the case at all. If life is a gym, you're the one gawking at the provocatively dressed predators demanding an audience while passing by the quiet more thoughtful people who are focused on the task at hand, which is improving themselves. I would sit down, re-calibrate you're ideas about quality and look more towards the actual person and less on the showroom finish that seems to have you blinded.
Guess what? wrote: And when you lack experience it is not easy to act like if you know what you are doing... you can do it but i don't think you will go far.
Guess what? wrote:people are not forced to accept me for what I am...
and if I am a bad person I will be alone.
In the thread about anger management it has been said that I must act like nothing touches me, even if i feel really bad for it.
I did things that are still making me suffer a lot, I hurted people that wanted to care about me.
Candid wrote:Do you think you're a bad person? You don't seem like one here. Sad maybe, but not bad.
If you don't like who you are, I guess you have to hide everything about yourself. It's better to be mindful of how you interact with people, do unto others etc., so that at the end of each day you can tell yourself: "I did well."
All adults have some regrets. I'm sure I've hurt people as well -- usually because I was hurt myself at the time. Sometimes it's just thoughtlessness, or having an 'off' day. And there will always be people who misinterpret things you've said, deliberately or otherwise. There will always be people who don't like you. That's why it's so important to be on your own side. Unless you treat yourself well, you won't be able to treat others well.
If hurting people was recent, you could (if you feel like it) contact them and offer an apology. That's if the relationship matters to you. If it doesn't, no harm done.
You seem to be carrying a heavy burden of shame. You can make the decision right now that you're going to do better, become the more caring person you really are, and forgive yourself for whatever it is you think you've done badly.
Guess what? wrote: I wished that I did mistakes with another one before her, so I wouldn't have do stupid things with her.
I'm saying she is not so pure and perfect...
I'm so scared that if, for that 0.01% of chance, she will come back, she will do just for a "cheap" decision, and then left me when she will find something better...
I know it is ridicolous... we are talking about a girl, that i knew for 2 weeks, and after 4 months I still think at her..
Well guess what, Guess What? You are now in that position. You made the mistake, you acknowledge it was a mistake, and you won't make that mistake with the next one. Or will you?
I see on another thread you and Leo reinforcing each other's notions about how women think, what women want, how women behave. Leo is a curmudgeonly old man whose intimate relationships are with cats; you are at the other end of manhood. Just because he's given up on women doesn't mean you have to.
Good! We are all, men and women, a mixture of good and bad, learning through experience what works and what doesn't. Your bravado, and your ideas about women, are what's keeping you on the outside. There's no great mystery to it. This one matters to you only because she dumped you. There are plenty of others.
You are not helpless in this. Make the decision now that she definitely isn't coming back because you won't let her. You won't have her back. You're looking for someone who will adore you as you are.
Actually, having written that, I don't think it's true. If we deep down don't like ourselves, we look for someone who will change us, someone who's worth changing for. That's what you appear to be doing.
Your ideas about women -- that we have it easy, that we can 'get' any man we want, and that we can get from our men anything we want, are just so wrong it's not funny. Because you are young, you're not self-referring. To feel good about yourself you need approval from elsewhere. To you, approval from women seems like the pinnacle of success. I can assure you it isn't. Until you can approve of yourself, you won'r even begin to know who you are.
Yes -- because she gave you a chance, and you blew it. If I remember rightly, you made a stupid joke, a hurtful one. You literally don't know how to behave around women, so you get nervous and say stupid things.
As long as you're hating yourself you will go on alienating people and looking for an identity, any identity as long as it hides you and fools other people. That must be exhausting!
If you keep beating yourself up, you'll be black and blue and people will wonder what's wrong with you. There's nothing wrong with you apart from the fact that you don't like who you are.