Paws from weed and masturbation for 4.5 months

Stuckinpaws wrote:I have abused marijuana for 3.5 yrs...on and off...but in recent 6 months I did it continuously,so now i have to pay the price....along with that i combined it with masturbation also...so now i am past those symptoms of headache ...but even after 4.5 months i have insomnia,lost in my own world,mental fatigue converting into physical one also..
I sleep 4 hrs hardly...and always wake up suddenly in between and then just thoughts keep popping up for hours....i am frustrated as i have this sleep problem for 4 months....after waking i cant sleep whole day..
I am numb, i cant feel any happiness in anything, my personality changed, the very person i was changed. Now i dont even like listening songs or watching movies...ifeel i have lost my brain ..
Now i am just passing each day hopelessly, hoping one day magic will happen....i do nothing..i cant use my mind as i used it before..
Things are better than initial..but now its not improving...i have lost hope...as theres no life/spark left in me...i am justpassing each day as long as i could.....
My time just goes by thinking ..ifeel nothing is under my control....i used to think much earlier also but cannabis exaggerated it and i cant control it much now like earlier...
I did a mistake by smoking weed 2 times after the 2 months mark..but never touched it after that....n earlier i smoked weed for 6 months straight and stopped it suddenly due to lockdown...i have been through hell because of that..
I dnt feel interest in anything...
I have developed a wrong mentality about female gender beavuse of masturbation and a wrong mentality for life also...
Even when i smoke cigarettes sometimes,it doesn't feel anything in my head.... I dnt find the energy to do anything...
How the hell will my body and mind detox if i dont sleep ?
Can anyone guide me detailed on how what all things i can do to get my sleep and mind back....