Laykaers wrote: I want to make it to medical school, and give my patients the most genuine care/treatment that I could possibly give. I want to truly help people more than my brother could ever do. But having him here with me for these next few years could possibly break my confidence. I'm not sure what to do here.
The first thing you need to do is to stop competing with your brother.
The second thing to do is to stop blaming your brother for who you are or who you will or want to be.
Your brother doesn't stop you from singing in the shower. You do.
Your brother doesn't stop you from getting into medical school. You do.
You are setting yourself up to say, "I coulda been great, except for my darn brother." You become uncomfortable around your brother and that is on you, not him. And one day you will meet other people that you are uncomfortable around. Will you also blame them for whatever struggles you face? What if instead of your brother, the head surgeon doesn't talk to you how you like and is great with patients, but not how you like. The head surgeon makes you feel uncomfortable. Will it be the fault of the head surgeon you don't get past residency?
You are responsible for you, no one else.
I recommend you start setting small goals to build your confidence. Challenge yourself to get out of your comfort zone. Start with the small goal of singing in the shower. That is an easy one to focus in on and conquer.