Hi Again,
I posted in this forum just a while ago at problems at work, http://www.uncommonforum.com/viewtopic.php?t=92988.
A while ago I worked out that a rumour is going around that I'm a narcissist, lying, manipulative and not to be trusted and sounds like to me that they think I set up these projects to fail. This has completely destroyed other peoples' trust in me, my reputation is in ruins and I am mentally destroyed. I work myself into the ground, be open, honest, (I thought) dependable, and this is what happens.
I've tried to analyse myself and my actions see what could cause this. I've done every online personality test I can find and it comes back with Avoidance/Paranoid; with narcissism being my lowest score. I've even done specific narcissism tests and come back with being so low in this personality trait I wonder if it even works. I've convinced myself that I'm definitely not this kind of person.
I resigned when I could take much more, but my bosses didn't want me to leave and kept on at me to stay saying everything is fine. (I've got a three month notice period to work out). Things seemed to clam down so I thought I'd stay after the fourth time of asking me to stay; since I had no strength for interviews I was resigning without a job to go to.
But I've recently overheard someone saying "...he's a dangerous person..." meaning me I've no doubt. However, I only have suspicions, everything is very vague and intangible; I can't get anybody to confirm what is going on.
When I confronted one of my bosses about this in an effort to sort things out they claimed no knowledge of such things; but I know they are lying because I heard them discussing it which is why I chose to speak to them. However, the boss seems to want to keep me and has got HR involved; so confusing.
I cried on the way back from work because of this and I almost never cry, damn it.
I've suspicions that some "true" narcissist has been manipulating people to believe that I set them up, but I've had no official complaints or negative feedback from reviews.
Basically I'm confused as to what is going on. I've been bullied before, but nothing like this.
Anybody heard of anything similar or have any advice?