Graham wrote:I've worked with my counselors at DARE, and they take considerable effort to couch truth in compassion, so that the message comes forward in the right way. They don't say much different from you and Tokeless, but there's an exuding of kindness and love. Not just factual discussion. We are given the truth.
If I’m following you correctly, the exuding kindness and love is giving you the truth that you are a banana head.
I offer the opinion that after 3 months of weed, that 28 months later the symptoms you are experiencing are most likely psychosomatic, and that is not compassionate and somehow labels you. But labeling you a “banana head” is compassionate.
The counselors are not saying much different than me or tokeless, just phrasing it in a way that caters to your preference, i.e. it feels better to you to be labeled a banana head.
Here is a thought. Maybe you are still struggling 28 months later, because you are being told you are a banana head. It feels nice and comfortable, but maybe it isn’t actually as helpful as you think it is? It keeps you attending meetings, it builds some nice friendships, but it doesn’t actually resolve much.
Maybe labeling you a banana head makes you feel good, but it isn’t actually very compassionate.
Perhaps it's a shortcoming of this forum, because we can't see each other and hear each other and discern the tone people are writing their messages with. For example why did you label "Exstonerchick" as playing my "Saviour"?
Yes, a text based forum is not ideal. Things do get lost in translation.
I’m not not big on labels. Same as I don’t think you are a banana head, I’m not labeling exstonerchick. I’m only pointing out the stereotypical saviour mentality that some people adopt. In this case, someone taking pity on you and treating you as if you need to be rescued from this discussion.
And to be truthful, I don't know if this forum has helped me. However I am in the habit of popping in from time to time. I like engaging in debate, so this has been enjoyable from that perspective.
I find it enjoyable as well. It is not easy to objectively determine the extent to which any particular thread or discussion is helpful. It is also not possible to state how the experiences you gain across forums interact. Ultimately, whatever progress a person makes, or lack of progress, is a mix of all of these interactions.
Note, regardless if you personally think that it is kind and loving, I will never, ever call you a “silly goose” or point out that you are a “banana head”. I don’t find that compassionate. You are a capable, articulate, near 40 year old man. You deserve to be treated as such. That is compassion.