Anger, intollerance, moody, no pot is messing with my mind

You have to remember why you wanted to quit in the first place man. And you have to remember the reason why you feel so bad right now is because you know you screwed up, and you want a better life for yourself. What you need to do is get all the people you know that smoke pot out of your life. If that is not an option, such as family members, or roomates, then I suggest this. Open up to them and tell them how you feel, and how badly you want to stop smoking. Tell them to help you and keep it away from you, and tell them that if you ask for it, DONT GIVE IT TO ME. If they laugh at you and tell you that you are stupid for wanting to quit, well, you HAVE to get them out of your life then man. If you are around people that are smoking, simply leave. Don't allow yourself to be in the atmosphere, because at that point it is more of a habit to break than an addiction. It makes you feel left out and lonely, but you have to remember that smoking is only going to make you feel worse! BE STRONGER THAN THE DRUG AND SAY NO! Don't be afraid that your friends wont understand, because all my friends really did understand and are very supportive of me quitting. You really need somebody by your side that is going through the same thing. I tried to quit in the past, but now that my brother and best friend have decided to quit also, it is much easier to keep back those urges. We have more or less a contest to see who can last longer, and hopefully our number will always be the same. Good luck man, I hope you find the light again.

Totally agree with addicted, get all chronic smokers out of your life, at least until you're clean. STOP SMOKING, you'll be able to wake up at 8am (other than working) and feel totally refreshed, WEED IS GAY!!!

I am on Day 7 after 10+ years of smoking 24/7. Let's all hang in there and do not go back to that crap. My mind feels clearer-even my voice sounds different. Life is different. I always thought nothing was fun unless I was high. Now I don't want to be high because I would feel paranoid. It's nice to not be looking over your shoulder. Stay strong!

Hey Putmeout,

You are awesome for continuing to post about what it's like to have a slip. I have seen people leave this forum after a slip (look at the old messages for proof). You have obviously not given up!

It takes serious courage to admit that you made a mistake. You should feel proud that your bang-on accurate commentary (internal monologue during a slip) will help others avoid making the same mistake you did.

Let us know how you're doing. We're real people here, not just some frickin robots in cyberspace.

Peace.

hello humans(not robots),
thanks for being supportive, sometimes a kind word on the net does help an awful lot, today is day 1 again, I had to pay my dealer back £30 that I had owed for ages, anyway I had to go and pay it, and ended up buying some skunk, got home back into the routine of smoking, felt crap and mentally beat myself up(oh what a suprise), then realised what the f*ck am i doing, I then went outside and chucked the skunk down a drain in the road, Jesus that stuff plays with your mind, promising you a way out and giving you absolutely nothing. So today I am back being clean. roll on tomorrow, its a hard habit to break!!!

Dear People

I have come to th steady realisation that I am addicted in one form or another to smoking weed...it has been my brother for 16 years "assisting" me in all that I do in life.

I moved to Oz from the UK and I was a hardened clubber for many years. I am in my mid 30's and the realisation that I have a problem has dawned on me recently. I work in a tough sales environment and smoking a fat one was my way of chillin after a tough day.

Over the past two yaesr I have been craeting meetings with clients that don't exist...I come home to smoke. I have become more isolated and tend to smoke constantly in the evenings and rarely see my friends who are none smokers. I thought it was just being sociable and fun.

I have lost my last 2 well paid jobs, I am interviewing and twice I have arrived at interviews stoned. All my life is revolving around smoking weed.

I have to stop but the fear of losing my experiences and insights scares me. I am at home unable to sleep after many drinks. I am not suicidal but I think of the many wasted opportunities I have let pass me by.

I want to use this site to reinforce my will and talk candidly about getting my life back. I already feel like I am losing the part of me that makes me funny, witty, socaible and daring.

Any assistance would be great as I now need to get a grip of my slippery slope.

Please get in touch with suggestions on how I deal and come to terms with this total change in life.

warmest regards

bennito wrote:I have to stop but the fear of losing my experiences and insights scares me

what are these experiences and insights you think you will lose, you mentioned none of them in your post, just that smoking weed has taken over your life, I ain't got no real pearls of wisdom, you just have to quit fullstop, thats my opinion. cutting down don't work for me It just prolongs not quiting, plus I never cut down I just bought less more often. you can quit it, but you have to deal with the hard times and intense emotions and feelings, but thats probably why loads of us smoke weed so we don't have to feel them. We'll never grow unless we learn what our real feelings are like. good luck! have a go you never know!

To anyone else beware of relapse, don't think coz a few weeks have passed that you can have a little weed to remind yourself what it is like, coz it sucks people(me) back in, then you have to struggle to quit again. On day 2 at the moment, but this time, I know I can't fooled again.
Respect to all the quitters! we can do it!

But it seems I can't.. caved in again for last two weeks almost, 2:50 saturday night, finished off the skunk, gonna go for the quit again tomorrow, I am so sick of and so bored of this not so merry go round. Smoking makes me feel like i am just full of sh**.
Hey ho day1 again.

Hey!

We may just be virtual friends, but all the people posting here are actual people who are all sharing the experience of quitting cannabis. I think it is amazing that you have the integrity to own up to your mistakes and show people what a struggle it is to quit smoking this sh*t. It's cool that you actually come back to tell your story. So many people just fade out once they slip, leaving the rest of us wondering how they're doing.

You obviously want to get off the chronic, so re-vamp your gameplan and stay off it this time. I know you can do it! (Now you just have to believe that yourself.)

Putmeout wrote:10 days and counting no cigs either.
I am also thinking of quiting alcohol also, as I had a weird night last night. I went out and drank 3pints and a couple of gins. Now thats not much in the history of what I have been able to drink before, but from drinking that, I ended up so f*cked that I thought I had been spiked, I got the last bus home and was have trouble staying concious on the bus, then spent from11.30 till around 3am puking with my head spinning my vision was a mess, I was writhing in pain and screaming out just take my mind off of what was happening, It was awful, I haven't puked from booze for as long as i can remember, and certainly felt way more than just drunk. It was messy hence the fact I feel I was either spiked, or the other thing I can think of is that because I ain't stoned anymore my tollerance to mind altering stuff has drastically weakend. whatever it was, I don't want to feel it again. Anyway just been to a gig alldayer and have drunk only juice. It was weird and the realization of being around a load of people who were ripped was bizzare to say the least.

Any ideas? spiked or just can't take it anymore.

So I have decided to lay off the booze as well coz feeling like a pile of sh*t is not my idea of fun.

i personally think that because you are now listening more to what your body wants now, it is not afraid to tell you what it doesnt like. And it doesnt like you mixing drinks! Well done mate, your an inspiration to me... today is my first day of soberness and its only the morning...
im gonna try to go cold turkey and quit fags and weed together.
but from reading your earlier posts i can identify with you alot.
i think that maybe your bodies trying to tell you that it doesnt like the drink, its poisen. Maybe just keep it to special occasion thing and eat food while ur drinking. Im gonna stop drinking too i think.
So
Im gonna stop drinking, smoking, and toking...
and take my life back!!
your doing soo weell mate, keep up the good work...
xxx

[quote="lp_ultra"]...feel totally refreshed, WEED IS GAY!!![/quote]

HA HA!!!

Phoenix11- Good luck to you! I notice you've been pretty busy here for a Day 1er. Stay with it!! Tomorrow is not going to be easy, and the after may not be either!!

Quitting everything at once? I don't know ...I would never advocate replacing one with the other so maybe this is the best way for you.

Peace!

Clogged Synapseses wrote:

lp_ultra wrote:...feel totally refreshed, WEED IS GAY!!!

HA HA!!!

Phoenix11- Good luck to you! I notice you've been pretty busy here for a Day 1er. Stay with it!! Tomorrow is not going to be easy, and the after may not be either!!

Quitting everything at once? I don't know ...I would never advocate replacing one with the other so maybe this is the best way for you.

Peace!

weed is a total gaylord....
yes cold turkey is the way for me other wise i will just get back on the slippery slope of smoking fags, then smoking spliffs etc...
so no fags, no booze, no weed or hash...
grrr its not gonna be easy...
the greatest victory one can have is over oneself..

Back again, been useless lately, smoking and buying, It's so f**king hard once you have started again, seem to have lost all the positive edge of quiting, Once the smoke has got you back it don't want you to leave. Got to get my head straight, the pot twists my mind against any thought of quiting for good, but I have to do it, for my sanity and for my life to change. Argh! Again!

Thanks for keeping us posted. Instead of having your mind sabotage your attempts to quit forever, why not set a goal to stay off weed for a certain amount of time (i.e. 15 days, or 30 days)? Once you reach that goal, if you are feeling better, you can extend it.

Just a thought.

Do what you need to do to be who you truly are.