Recently married, less than 2 months, to a Dr. I was a nurse (lvn), but quit my job to go back to college for a better degree. Between the two of us, we have 3, 4, and 5 year old kids. The 3 year old is "slow" due to being very premature and i think eventually he will snap out of that. the 4 year old is typical, but runs your nerves in the ground some days. He breaks my heart everyday by saying "momma, don't be so mad, please be happy"- But I can't. The 5 year old has ODD and ADHD and challenges me every day (the 3 and 5 yr olds mother passed away 3 years ago).
Basically my husband is at his breaking point and i think my kids are beginning to resent or hate me the way i resent my parents. I am the nicest, sweetest person in the world, then SNAP, I'm like the Hulk......WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???? I blame it on stress from the kids and school and housework, but seriously, I look and sound like I'm throwing a temper tantrum - and if someone confronts me at the time, I mock and degrade and belittle them. My family, even my in-laws, are walking on eggshells right now. Please, please help me before I destroy my family.