Depressed and Suicidal

**Posts:** 8 · by **XTREME201** » Tue May 23, 2017 7:53 pm

For the past month, Every morning I wake up, I instantly think about how bad my life is and how it is going to get worse. No one except my family cares if I live or die. I have very few close friends, and no girlfriends. I am hopeless. I believe I have failed in this life. I have almost completely certain I will kill myself within the next month. Right now I am self medicating with Tylenol 3's, klonopin, and sleeping pills.

P. S. I hate the city that I live in, everyone is in cliques and naive, and rude to others. Also, it is almost impossible to find any kind of work here. When I gather enough money, from a job in another city, I am absconding to Europe.

**Posts:** 400 · by **Zanoni** » Tue May 23, 2017 9:53 pm

I posted a poll on twitter asking if I should commit suicide or not. 67% said yes I should. So people don't care if you live or die. At best they "say" they do but can't define whate "care" means (other than just words)

**Posts:** 12131 · by **Richard@DecisionSkills** » Tue May 23, 2017 10:17 pm

Yes, the vast majority of people do not care whether I live or die. So what?

There are 7 billion people on the planet. Of these people there are a handful, less than 10 individuals that would grieve. So what?

This handful will be even less as family members significantly older than me die. So what?

What if when I die there is no one left to care? So what?

To me, it matters not whether others care whether I live or die. It doesn't stop whether or not I buy strawberries or apples. It doesn't make a bit of difference how many people do or do not care. But, that is me.

**Posts:** 400 · by **Zanoni** » Tue May 23, 2017 10:40 pm

I've another poll up and running.

100% so far.

**Posts:** 12131 · by **Richard@DecisionSkills** » Tue May 23, 2017 10:44 pm

Zanoni wrote:I've another poll up and running.

100% so far.

So what? Why does the poll matter whether or not strangers care? Does it stop you from choosing between chicken tacos or spaghetti for dinner?

**Posts:** 400 · by **Zanoni** » Tue May 23, 2017 10:52 pm

It matters who I spend my time eating those things with or even buying the food stuff from in the first place.

It matters who I talk to about those things.

**Posts:** 400 · by **Zanoni** » Tue May 23, 2017 10:53 pm

Other people make life worth living or so I'm told. If not then why not be a loner, die alone and be forgotten. I suppose it doesn't matter after all.

**Posts:** 400 · by **Zanoni** » Tue May 23, 2017 11:02 pm

@rookgambit for proof

**Posts:** 12131 · by **Richard@DecisionSkills** » Tue May 23, 2017 11:47 pm

Zanoni wrote:Other people make life worth living or...

Sure. Caring about others makes life worth living. Taking care of other humans or living things provides purpose, it makes life worth living, it makes it enjoyable.

But so what if they care or not? So what if it is 100% that others don't care? Why must caring work both ways?

**Posts:** 400 · by **Zanoni** » Tue May 23, 2017 11:54 pm

Richard,

You're asking the wrong person. I don't care.

I just watch the vote go up or down.

**Posts:** 400 · by **Zanoni** » Wed May 24, 2017 12:08 am

If stuck in a marriage where the other person doesn't care about you would you stay? Obviously not. So the same with life and the people within it....you leave (suicide)

**Posts:** 12131 · by **Richard@DecisionSkills** » Wed May 24, 2017 12:11 am

Zanoni wrote:Richard,

You're asking the wrong person. I don't care.

I just watch the vote go up or down.

Zanoni,

First, it isn't all about you. It is a question for everyone as it is a public forum.

Second, your full of sh*t as you and all your previous accounts are the poster child for "woah is me" syndrome. You didn't post the question on Twitter as an impartial observer.

**Posts:** 400 · by **Zanoni** » Wed May 24, 2017 12:20 am

You had me in a quote box thats why I responded.

Suicide is acceptable in my eyes. I agree with everyone else that life doesn't matter.

What's the problem?

**Posts:** 12131 · by **Richard@DecisionSkills** » Wed May 24, 2017 12:20 am

Zanoni wrote:If stuck in a marriage where the other person doesn't care about you would you stay? Obviously not. So the same with life and the people within it....you leave (suicide)

A bullsh*t comparison.

You have never felt good by helping an animal in need? You have never cared or helped anyone or anything without expecting something in return or some reward?

**Posts:** 400 · by **Zanoni** » Wed May 24, 2017 12:24 am

Yes I've helped people in the group "Hope" unpaid vouleter work I went to. I don't see the point you are making.

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