Hello forumers. This is my first time posting on this site, but I really do feel that the people here and the help that has been given has made me bold enough to finally reach out for help myself. I don't expect sound advice but do appreciate those who at least listen, so please here me out:
I don't know what to do for a career in my life.
I dont have dreams, I'm not ambitious, and I lack drive.
This leads me to becoming lazy, unmotivated, and uninterested in most of my subjects.
Most things bore me, and I lack empathy for my school grades. I just don't care much for them because I have no interest in school and mostly because I don't know what I want, therefore leading to my lack of direction.
What source, book, or anything, do you recommend to help me find that one thing in life that I passionately want to actually do?
Now, you may ask why I'm bringing this up. Well, I have finally decided that after 3 years of dilly-dallying in community college and failing in classes, that I was finally going to be serious about my life. Just one problem though: I didn't know what to be serious about. So here I am, looking for some kind of advice or tips on how to find a "dream." I secretly envy those who, since young have already known what path to pursue. There too was a time I had chilhood dreams of becoming a doctor, but that quickly disappeared once I fully understood what being a doctor was really like. I actually wish I still had those chilhood fantasies just so I could have actually pursued a career and would have at least earned a decent living. My lack of empathy and drive because of this absence of a dream has been so bad lately that I have actually failed a class twice, and have failed two other different classes in the past semester. I don't even know how I still manage to have a 2.6 GPA when the past year has been nothing but pure sh**. Don't get me wrong, I don't really think I'm stupid, even though I have honestly questioned myself about the possibility of me being stupid. But clearly something is wrong. In high school I was in the honor roll, but right now I'm in the toilet roll. Okay, lame jokes aside, I really do need help.
Here's a rough idea of how I'm going to address the situation:
I want to spend at least a month investing my time in thorough research about the life I want to live and engage in a lot of serious, well-thought-out descision making.
Some kids my age go to the web and answer these personality or career quizes under 20 minutes and expect to finally know what they want to do in life. But shouldn't a career choice, which is an important part of your life that will indefinitely influence the rest of your life and the kind of life you would be leading, be given much more conscious thought and deep thinking than just simple online tests? Besides reading self-help books (which there is an overwhelming amount available on Amazon), I really don't know what else to do. Any recommendations on the book I should be reading, tips, and tricks? SEND HELP!