I really dont know what to do anymore. I dont think im normal and sometimes i wonder if im being a spoilt brat but somrthing just doesnt feel right..So to keep this as short as possible, i am a female and 13 years old. My parents are divorced and adhd runs through my mums family and schizophrenia runs through my dads family (my dad is 61 and has schizophrenia) and my mum doesnt have a mental illness.
So basically my mum is dating someone that i really hate. I also really hate his child too. But not only that, i alwas have to be around them and i really hate my mum and i feelnlike whenever i say i dont want to be with my mum she plays the victim. As well as this my mum wants me to move to cairns with her and stop me from seeing my dad. But the thing is i love my dad so so much and im cryinf just even thinking about the fact that im away from my dad. I read a thing online that people who get attached the other people and are obsessive is normally early signs of schizophrenia so im also really afriad and the other thing is my dad doesnt want me because he wouldnt be able to take care of me so i want to kill myself so im really depressed and scared and my mums boyfriend is trying to be like my father and his son is a year younger than me so hes always around me and i absolutely hate my life and i wonder if like im being a brat or not can someone please tell me i want to kill myself so bad someone help im sorry
