27 months quit - i give up

wow what an inspiration!!! PAWS is without a doubt the most difficult trial I've experienced in life. I hope to get through it and get through to the other side like you did.

2yearquit wrote:this is hell on earth I am 27 months clean from weed on christmas day and no longer want to live like this. The waves of depression and hopelessness i feel on a weekly basis is heartbreaking to say the least after been quit for so long.
I do not know what to do.

27 months is a long time. I was in Isolation in a psychiatric hospital for 3 years, almost, i broke down in the last week i was there. I almost couldn't breathe, i struggeled. Then they transferred me (to a more open place). In that place i had somewhere to take a break, where i was broken (break down - broken) until they wanted or i "naturally" ended up in belt-bed. Repeatedly.

Last i heard i am not Psychotic, wheres as before they said i was Psychotic / Addicted.

You need to find someone who can help you, and take away your freedom to return to weed. Like your friends. Until you're clean.

Cthompson, you can do this bro. Don't you dare give up. You are strong and you will get through this. It's sucks at times and even hell at other times, but time is your friend not your enemy. Day by day bro. Day by day.

And Armstrong, if you read later on, it took him almost 3 years. But now 2 yearquit is all healed and normal again.

@2yearquit, I am SO glad you just happened to stop by on this forum! I don't think it was coincidence as your story helps so many people and I just "happened" to decide to revive it the same night you logged in. Anyway, definitely hop in every now and then and check this thread in case anyone asks questions. I believe astro did already. As you can imagine, people like you make a huge difference to so many. My story is quite odd. I took legit non-laced weed 4 times in 1 week (end of January 2018). Then for the next several weeks I experienced severe anxiety, fatigue, loss of appetite, dizziness, headache, unable to read to my kids etc (scariest time in my life). Then for the next several months later all that remains is a slight buzzy/dizziness that irritates me and sometimes distracts. And sometimes a brief anxiety comes and goes but its rare. I'm grateful I never had the severity that most had but granted i only took weed 4 times. But despite that, stories like yours and others give me hope because even though it is crazy that little did so much to me, I know I can get fully well again if others like you who abused it for so many years eventually healed.

Definitely stay around 2yearquit as your words will continue to be a source of hope for YEARS to come I'm sure. I hope you have a wonderful week and I am so happy you are well again and can seize your life back!

Hey there 2YQ, thanks for checking in again. It's great to hear your progress and it is inspiring. I too was here almost daily for the first 3 or 4 months and I think be that's common, as that seems to be a critical time. I too have drifted in and out, but I also got a square job, albeit low paying, but hey I'm busy every day, and I'm active and staying strong. I'm also hustling side work and saving money to buy the family a decent car. My credit score has gone up 30 points as well. So a lot of tangible benefits for myself and more importantly, for my family who rely on me so heavily. Now dad is paying attention to life and the future and living in reality.

All that said, at 6 months now, the mental side is still very tough. I say fk it all, what's the point, I'm this, I'm that, and get on a real negative train at times, down on myself and doing the usual BS. But I'm hanging in there, and stories like this and the other long term people on here keep me going. I'm excited to see 12 mo, 18, 24, THIRTY SEVEN!! That's awesome dude, seriously. So, marching ever forward, through the fog and the muck...the struggle continues!

Peace to all, stay up

Hey 2yearquit, definitely a massive inspiration to someone like me who is going through this for the 2nd time. One question I have for you is how bad did your memory and your depersonalisation get? I too suffer a lot with conversation and working because my short term memory is so bad it’s hard to retain anything long enough to engage with people and my work and my spatial awareness / focus is always off with the depersonalisation, but I had been at a stage in my previous recovery last year where I felt this was much improved so just wondering how bad yours was during your 2years suffering (if you remember that is haha)

Cheers

Just thought I would put this inspirational thread back to the top for any new quitters starting their journey. While I’m here I would like to ask for a big and final 40 month update from you 2years if you have the time!

Hiya mate , thank you for posting and I hope this finds you well. It’s hard to believe it’s around this time last year I made my first post on this site when I was feeling pretty low and the progress I have made in the last 12 months. Life is pretty good I have my ups and downs like everybody else but all my symptoms have all but disappeared and I am cruising towards 4 years later on this year currently just over 40 months I have some pretty big goals this year and I do have some catching up to do after having such a hard time after quitting but I know I can get there.
So to all you quitters out there especially newbies stay strong you all can push through this , it is a nightmare I know but it does get better it just takes time .
Peace.

You're an inspiration, buddy. I'm 12 days from one year sober and your story is helpful. Still having a rough go at it. Thank god for this forum.

Hey thanks for bringing it back around and thanks for the response 2YQ. You and many others really helped me through the first couple of months, just reading your experiences and realizing the gravity of this situation. I'm at 9 months clean as of Jan 4, 2019. Life has changed for the better in many many ways. Most of all, I like being able to remember and retain memories and experiences. I know there is still a long road ahead, but I see it improving daily.
Cheers to all who are walking this path, no matter how far along you are. Just keep walking forward....

I wanted to bring this thread back to the top of the list again for any newcomers or some of us people who have been around awhile and still experiencing the bad effects of PAWS.

This guys story is incredible because it took him almost THREE years of pretty intense and continual waves of PAWS before relief hit (and he was a big time smoker with 10 years of daily smoking as well). He not only found relief, but complete healing and post again SEVERAL months later to tell us all that he STILL is symptom free and back to normal.

May this post continue to give hope and encouragement to all who are in the throes and darkness of PAWS.

dope post 2years... your first one scared me and then the turn around. I'm at 4.5 months and still dealing with paws but i can see that my life is turning around step by step.

Wanting to bump this amazing story as it's been almost 2 years.

i was 100% free from paws after 16 months

This is so encouraging to see after such a long struggle with PAWS there is light at the end of that dark tunnel. Congratulations 2years on your success and recovery.
After 11 months free from Cannabis i needed this. Thank you and all the very best to everyone still battling through PAWS. WE WILL HEAL

I am almost 8 months off of edibles I took for 2 years. I used them for anxiety and insomnia, like medicine. I wasn’t even wanting or trying to get high. I hate the feeling. But I had to quit last November because I was experiencing a horrible headache, nausea and some weird paranoia. I went to the ER a few times even, I was so sick. The ER said it might be the thc, so i quit that day and the next day began my hell on earth. Anyways, I’m almost 8 months without and I have had really good days, sometimes weeks. But now i feel like crap again! I recall reading on these forums that it is normal to be going along fine and then get a bout of feeling awful again. I hope that’s all it is and I will feel better again. I hate this!! Oh and did I mention the incessant sound in my right ear. It’s relentless. That has never stopped!