by jimindigo » Fri May 02, 2014 9:00 pm
Hello Friend,
As you can see,it was your reference to hurrying that caught my eye.
Dear God, I've had that all my life,and hated it! Where did it come from? Easy, from
my dear abusive parents. "Go and get this,and you better f---ing HURRY,OR I'll f---ing
KILL YOU!" You see,a child BELIEVES what his parents say,I really thought they WOULD
kill me if I did NOT hurry--so I hurried,and I've been hurrying ever since. It's like they
put a 'hurry chip' in my brain and I can't get at it to short-circuit it.
And the anger? Well,all children look at everything their parents do,and COPY THEM!
Every flicker of an eyelash is noted and logged and copied,everything. In extreme cases,
the child can BECOME THE PARENT (virtually).
I'm having to deliberately SL--OOO--WWW
down this typing,or I will go off like a secretary on fire,making mistakes all over the place.
That's another thing, I wasn't ALLOWED to make mistakes, or I'd get killed for that too.
If this chimes with you,maybe NOW you could get help you need.
My Compassion,
jimindigo