at the beginning, he was just saying me things like “sl ut” etc. But he begins to say things like I am not able to understand what he says, I am stupid etc which I am sure I am not these. maybe because of this self confidence I have, I still think I can be with him again. But I know he will keep doing this and will get worse. So broke up. He first said me “ when you regret call me maybe I’ll accept” and than said things like **** off and the next day he text me if I am regretted again. I wish he loved me too. He always said that but he lied. I loved being his slave and I was always so sincere to him. Ready to find him a girl for ffm. He said to me I am special, other girls would be for fun, he wants to see me getting used etc. I was okay with it, because I was sure no girl would understand him as I do, and no girl as clever as I am would want to be with that psycho anyway (I am with him because I have some problems about my self I am sure). So everything was going fine, than he starts to humiliate me in a way that is not sexy, just narsistic and toxic. I think he hates women, he wants to take advantage of them. And even me being clever and all, he doesnt care. He just want to use me as a girl who is ready for anything.
So I am aware. But I still want to be with him, I dont have any proud. Why am I like that. I just want to block him but I cant because I know he’s going to text me bcz he doesnt have another slave. I know even if I go back to him, he would continiue to treat me like sh** and maybe leave me. He buys me present at first, so I would leave him. Now everything is like opposite.
I am more sick than he is.