WhatIs_87 wrote:Hi Richard,
I'm actually not afraid of his rejection. I'm afraid of his acceptance and having a relationship with him in the first place.
Fear of acceptance/rejection, there is no difference in your lack of “actively” seeking clarity.
Fear is normal. You acting like you have been trying so hard to gain clarity is where you are shifting the blame/cause on 8+ months of missed opportunities, messages, lost cell phones, unopened letters, etc. etc.
And you completely ignored the advice to send a certified letter, hire someone, or use a trusted friend to hand deliver a message. If you literally wanted to gain clarity it isn’t that difficult. It doesn’t take 8+ months.
This sending a message via X or Y and waiting several months to then explain away and create plausible excuses is doing you no favors.
Notice, I have gone from telling you to leave him alone to telling you to get it over with. You have used normal messaging, no response. You have used your step sister, no response. So if it is causing you such agony, send a certified letter or hire someone to deliver the message.