Candid wrote:By "serious" you mean truthful, right?
The first time you replied to my answer, you implied you wanted to go back to the counting thread. I do not see this as a serious reply. I may not be an English teacher, but I felt the word 'serious' to be more appropriate than 'truthful' in the given context.
I explained to you I had requested therapy. I have enough self awareness to know my own issues and will deal with them when the opportunity arises. I informed them of these issues some months ago.
I don't see other people as uncaring: I see myself as tainted. When they leave and say "I won't be in touch etc etc etc", I think "You're best out of it."
If you know anything about Transactional Analysis, then this is how a therapist might see it:
My Adult believed you when you said you were busy.
My Hurt Child believed this was a round-about way of saying she is bad; she has done something wrong and you are going to sit here and make her stew until you decide to tell her what it is she has done wrong.
When I kicked off the first time, my Hurt Child needed to hear something from you e.g. 'I AM very busy, it isn't your fault, but there are some important things I need to do'. When she didn't hear anything, she started expecting the worst and everything snowballed.
That's it in a nutshell as far as I see it. Things may have got worse after I started doing the inner-child work you suggested, then, as you say, you got busier and we were both left in a difficult place.
I appreciate your honesty within your post. I needed to hear that from you. Thank you.
though I'm working on sorting that. In any case, this thread isn't about helping me.