Thank you Mike
I see a lot of good in your answer. I have recently been confronted by my pshychiatrist about confronting the behaviour or bflat.sharp the person vs. bflat.sharp the self mutilator. It was quite difficult to stand up and confront the behaviour, and asking myself why ? At least I am at the point where the war is going on in my head. Previously I just did sometimes without stopping. Now I can stop and with a lot of pain say no. One of my other therapists have suggested that I chop up a bag of wood with a real big axe. I did that yesterdag and although my body is sore from doing it, I did not hurt myself. That I see as progression. I think I reached the same level of adrenaline than through cutting. I also bought a dartboard and 9 darts and paste the persons name/situation on the board and throw them and say what I think as I throw. So one gets rid of the agression. I might not change this behaviour in one day, but at least I made a DECISION to start fighting it.