Hello everyone. I just wanted to share my thoughts and maybe get some help.. Just Im not sure what is a problem. Dont even know where to start..
Im 16. I dont live with my parents like from time i turned 13 or something like that. I do talk to them and spend some time (Living with my grandma, but we dont really talk much or do something together).
But I dont have any confidence, I feel unloved. I was bullied when I was about 14 (still get bullied sometimes) , that really affected me too.I was bullied because of my look, I still remember all words which people said to me, and sometimes they still do. And yeah, I do believe them sometimes, just sometimes I get lost in all mess, and I think that Im horrible.
Another problem is that I most of my time I spend at home, alone in my room. And I really get sad, I do cry often. Im trying to get myself busy, but I cant be busy all the time, and I just get lost in my thoughts, bad thoughts. I dont know how to get rid of that feeling when u feel lonely af. and unloved. And just horrible.
So I just kinda lost all my confidence. So I get offended fast so every bad words affect me really. I know that I should go somewhere, do something and everything. But I became very shy and introvert.
So Im trying to find way to get back my confidence. And how not to feel lonely when u are alone.
I do write diary, meet my friends, workout. Because thats main things people suggest.
Thanks for reading..