Hi Guys.
I have a problem.
I am a successful 31 year old male. I have a good well paid job. I am healthy. I have a pretty and smart girlfriend. I have a bunch of friends that I can trust.
Looks like that since I do not have things to worry about recently there is a thing that started to bug me pretty bad couple of months ago.
All the time I feel that I do not fit in this world. Is it just me that understands that all things around us is just our perception? Is it just me to notice that we do not know anything about the world and that we do not know if it makes sense to ask this question in the first place? What is the world? What does it mean to ask questions? Why do I see what I see? I keep on dwelling on these questions for a while now and they really bug me. I feel like I am going mad. I am afraid I am going to turn into a nut-case.
I feel like I am a part of a computer game. Eat, sleep, work, love, socialise, enjoy the day, … on and on and on. I find it difficult to make sense of anything recently. I just play the game day by day and pretend everything is ok hoping I will find some answers or solutions before I go nuts.
I hope in those 6 billion people on the planet there is a group of us similar ones. I do not know what would I do with that group but at least I would not feel lonely or that I am going mad.
Hello? Are you there?