desperate788 wrote:The other thing is last time i decided not to go her my mental disease deterioriated
So your "mental disease" is worse when you stay at your mother's, and it's also worse when you decide not to go there.
Maybe it's in your imagination and nothing to do with her.
desperate788 wrote:what i dont understand is it doesnt happen when i sleep alone at my house
Aha! So you're not-okay at your mother's place and not-okay staying away, but you're on top of things when you're home alone.
Doesn't that answer your question?