I recently decided that I was an angry person. I concluded I had been for the last five years, ever since I was made redundant from my job. My wife assures me I have been like it for the 35 years she has known me. She knows me better than anyone (including myself), so I'll go with her diagnosis. I'm never violent and I rarely express anger in front of people. I display constant (and I mean all day, every day) irritability. I get irritable with even the slightest things, from a slow computer or a 'smart phone' that doesn't seem so smart, to people. People irritate me the most. Especially when they are driving, or talking, or just existing in the vicinity of ME.
I began a project a few weeks ago, which I call "Stop doing the same things and expecting different results", (Albert Einstein I believe). I began researching Anger Management and read a lot of articles and had several books recommended to me. But I've been reading self development books for years. I don't need to read more, in fact, I could probably write a book! Why continue to read books and expect a different result? Do I really need to know where this came from, what is causing it? Does it really matter if I have unresolved childhood issues? Should I not focus on the now, keeping one eye on the future?
I have observed that people seem to desire to follow something. A belief system, if you like. Many follow a religion, others follow their favourite sports team. So many people these days follow 'motivational quotes' and 'inspirational sayings', posting no end of 'positive memes and pictures' on social media. Perhaps the way to deal with my anger is to create my own belief system, based on behaviour. Some years ago I bought two books, 'How to Win Friends and Influence People' and 'The Rules of Work'. When I put into practice the suggestions from these two books the results, at times, were staggering. I was practicing a different behaviour and therefore getting different results. I feel now that I should have kept it up, it should have become 'my religion'. After all, behaviour is what it's all about, right?
"The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now" ( a clever Chinese fella, I believe).
I think I'll get those two books out of storage today and give it a go.
I'd be really interested to hear what any of you guys think of my idea, (in case it's a bit rubbish).