I dont even know anymore

**Posts:** 28 · by **undia** » Mon Sep 18, 2017 7:51 pm

Honestly I have been feeling really weird for a long time. Like all the passion has been sucked out of me. I don't find any joy in my friends or family and my body image has really been suffering. Recently i have started cutting again but even that doesn't make me feel anything. I just can get the thought of death out of my head, i just keep thinking that we are all going to die so what's the point. i don't see the point of trying with anything cause I'm just gonna die and then whatever i did wont have meant anything. the only reason I'm still alive now is because i realise how my death would affect people and i don't want to hurt anyone its just selfish. but i have been faced with the thought of death and i feel like I'm just sitting around waiting to die. This isn't a new feeling either as its been there for a few years.

**Posts:** 12131 · by **Richard@DecisionSkills** » Tue Sep 19, 2017 10:58 am

undia wrote: i don't see the point of trying with anything cause I'm just gonna die and then whatever i did wont have meant anything.

This commercial sums it up.

https://youtu.be/uaWA2GbcnJU

Your actions can mean a lot. Maybe your actions don't mean anything to you, but is that the standard? I understand depression is most often driven by ego-centric beliefs, that anything meaningful only means something if it is about me, me, me. This makes it difficult for a person suffering from depression to see how much meaning there is beyond themselves. You seem to at least have the understanding that others can suffer from your actions, e.g. suicide. Well, if they can suffer, then equally they can benefit.

**Posts:** 10113 · by **JuliusFawcett** » Sun Oct 01, 2017 4:53 pm

This is a message to change, to visualise a brighter future and to move towards it

I dont even know anymore

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