undia wrote: i don't see the point of trying with anything cause I'm just gonna die and then whatever i did wont have meant anything.
This commercial sums it up.
https://youtu.be/uaWA2GbcnJUYour actions can mean a lot. Maybe your actions don't mean anything to you, but is that the standard? I understand depression is most often driven by ego-centric beliefs, that anything meaningful only means something if it is about me, me, me. This makes it difficult for a person suffering from depression to see how much meaning there is beyond themselves. You seem to at least have the understanding that others can suffer from your actions, e.g. suicide. Well, if they can suffer, then equally they can benefit.